Read and weep

I'm stuck at home feeling really low.

Talking to Martin always makes me feel better. :) I do miss him terribly. I miss those days in 2006. LOADS. I miss the people back then. The comfort of a 'family' i can turn to.

After all these years, some has grown apart, some became closer. I've failed but He carries me through. This year's journey has been tough. I'm not denying that i felt like giving up most of the times. I've sacrificed many things. Many things that i cannot gain back.

Experiences.

Friends.

Love.

I know many people had to put up with my busy schedule. My family the most. My grandpa. And the friends i do not see outside of church. College mates.

And for the times when i ultimately felt like a loser and i had you guys to stand up for me. Why? Because you believed in me. I've never thanked you enough for that.

At times i too become a hypocrite. I start to judge people. I set expectations. I become someone i don't want to become.

But this journey is worth every bit. It made me into the person i am today. And He will continue being my pillar of strength. :)