Do you remember?

Remember how we started off?

Remember how unsure i was of things but you assured me anyway?

Remember how you use to talk about love forever, but i kept my feet firmly on the ground and told you not think so far?

Remember how one night in the rain changed everything and you left without a reason?

Remember how i had to deal without talking to you for entire months and how i almost thought i've lost everything?

Remember how i let eveything slide despite the number of things you did that hurt me?

Remember when you used to keep everthing in, thinking you were so macho and i brought you out of that?

Lastly, remember what you told me..

Even if we were to go our separate ways, we would still remain the best of friends and we could maintain a proper friendship.

Hah. What bullshit. If you wanna make promises and be matured about things, please do it properly.

I can take it being over, but it hurts so much because of who you becomed after it.

overlove.overcare.overeveything.

Thats what happened right? And it was such a horrible thing. One thing is for sure. I regret.

And friends are the ones supposed to be there?

HAHAHAHA.

I wonder where real friends are right now. Seriously. I don't even understand the meaning.

friend (frnd)

n.

1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.

2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.

3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.

4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.

5. Friend A member of the Society of Friends; a Quaker.

If friends are supposed to be all this, where are they? Hah. I'll just live my life in isolation. Thank you all.

Clutch!

I am photoshopping at 1.30a.m. I need to sleep. Lol. :D

Bagsclutchesbagsclutchesbagsclutchesbags.

I am still looking for a clutch for inti ball. No time already. AHH!

I am attracted to purple things. Hmm. Is my new fav colour purple? :D

Dedicated to Shereena. ;)

Happy 18th Birthday girl. :)

This whole post is for all the years i've known you. You've stuck by my side through the years no matter what. Haha. All the times we went through. Stupid things we used to do. Emo stuffs. Cycling to school and all that. Sleepovers, driving lessons. So many uncountable things. And.. i can't believe that you are leaving to Aussie already. I dont' don't don't want you to go. :(

But here's to you. Full of pictures. And pretty embarassing ones. Shows how much i love you. Haha.

our first picture? :D

Our group. :)

our younger days.

one of your camwhore moments. ;)

our driving ceramah and all that.

our genting trip.

your birthday yesterday. <3

Here's to another many years of friendship. We'll spend as much of time possible till you leave. I love you babe! Mwah! :)

Martin Jalleh's Tribute to MJ.

The Talent, the Tragedy & the Triumph

By Martin Jalleh

You brought back magic into music, leaving an indelible imprint. You gave dance an indescribable grace and showed impeccable mastery of movement.

You merged music and video and brought about a MTV generation. You magnificently and incredibly blended and bridged arena rock, soul and pop.

You moved the world’s conscience with your humanitarian spirit and inspired us with your clarion call to care for the hungry, homeless, HIV/AIDS victims and those without hope.

You mesmerized peoples of all races, languages and cultures, in every country, instilling in them the message that what mattered most was love and mutual respect.

You were matchless – you were an original, creative, unique and magnetizing musician and artist.

You were a true troubadour who ruled and “thrilled” the world” and you were also a tortured soul and a troubled life with a tumultuous childhood.

You were the very “Man in the Mirror” who chased after a “Childhood” you never had. You craved to be Peter Pan, and clamored to be a child forever on Neverland.

You were extraordinary. You were enchanting, exciting, entertaining and enamoring and you were also notoriously eccentric and erratic.

You were the world’s greatest pop icon, and an inspiration to countless – and sadly you were also accused of ignoble deeds such as being a child predator and “dangerous” to the young.

You dared us to look at the “Man in the Mirror” – and you would also literally deface and deform what you saw in the mirror, withthree decades of plastic surgeries.

You sang “We are the World”. You moonwalked all over the earth. But often you waked alone – like a lonely lost comet spinning out of control, a sullen solitary sorry sight.

You wanted to “heal the world” – you, a “wounded orphan”, a masked man with a “washed-out dream” and a weary worn-out soul of make-believe marriages, a King of pop finding peace in painkillers.

You were so free and yet so “addicted” to the adulation and adoration of your fans which in the end annihilated you. You were alienated from a normal life, a man of undisputed fame made to look like a freak.

You were a “beautiful boy” who tried so hard to bounce back and to “beat it” when you realized you were near-barren of creativity and bankruptcy. You were a blessed soul who died of a broken heart.

You were a superstar scarred. You were a very human hero – frail and flawed – and yet, the finest and “simply the greatest entertainer that ever lived”.

You were tainted talent with transcendent creativity – musical magnificence of immeasurable magnitude. Goodbye Michael Joseph Jackson. May God grant you His peace.

We will remember you -- a man who made HIStory.

(8 July 2009)

Love me not?

Today i had to take a picture of myself for some gaming thingy. 5 selected girls get to be the ambassadors for them. I doubt that i would get chosen among the thousands of girls(If it reaches that much ;D). Plus, i have to get people to vote for me so that my face will appear on the website.

=.="

I blame Shannon for this. All because the prize was RM1000. Lol. Okay laa. The money is the incentive fo us to join it. Tze Mien and Jessica were working there part-time. Long time no see! :)

And i got these freebies. If my brother doesn't want it, i'll see who else i can dump it on. ;D

Assignments are all due very soon! When am i not stressing?? Gosh.

On another note.

I just wish things would take a turn for the better. I honestly don't get the meaning of friends anymore. You do one thing and then it totally turns for the worst. I come online and i wished i didn't have to read blogs sometimes. It hurts way more than it's supposed to do.

It's like no matter how hard i try, the ones closest to my heart still end up hurting me the most. Sighs. And i keep turning back to the WRONG person. At times, i can't help it. In these kind of situations, there is nobody to trust. I am not asking for much okay?

I just need a fresh start on things. Really i do.

But God must have a plan for me, i'll just stay strong and hopefully things will fall in place again. :)

Nerding time.

I've just STARTED watching 90210 yesterday. :D Since i had a tiny bit of free time. I finished off my assignment first!

Pretty boy! :D

People, i don't care what you think of him in the show. Btw, i've just starting watching so pls don't spoil it. Heehee. He's so freaking adorable. Plus, he's tall and has the built... and.. and the only reason i am going crazy over him because he's impossible to get. ;)

And the BRATs got to meet Jien in Cheer! My childhood crush. Hehe. Once again, i wished i was there!!! :(

Anyways. I am back to nerding now. Sighs.

P.S. If i have left you guys out in my link, leave your link in my cbox.

Cameraman swing the focus.

I just finished editing my new blogskin. :)

I feel so overwhelmed.

I'm going to miss BRATS Ipoh 09 reunion at Cheer 09. Thousand of apologies. I also won't be also to support Michelle! And Carolyn Chow. ;) I hate being one of the few still stuck in college while all are enjoying their holidays. I hope i'll get to meet up with the rest of you BRATs another time! I'm missing you guys badly!

It's an everday battle.

Happy 19th Birthday Ms Chow. ;)

I'm glad you had a great one and the pretty flowers. Hehe. I came for your party despite the exams i was having. Need to release a little stress. :D We need to hang out properly soon yeah? Love youuuuu!

Farewell Ian.

Tazmania is very far from all of us here.

Everybody is leaving one by one. Ian i wish you all the best there. You are unique the way you are. Don't ever change. ;) No goodbyes cos i'll be seeing you again soon!

I am getting better slowly. I just keep myself occupied most of the time. Then it strikes when i am alone. Sometimes it hurts till i can't bare it. But i always kept looking forward.

I'm done with that silly selfish me. I am so grateful for all those people around me. Little things you all do really cheers me up. Words can't describe how much you mean to me. <3.

Random sms, sweet emails, outings, mamaks.

Girls! I am waiting for our lunch in Bangsar. :D

Back!

My internet has been really sucky these days. :(

American Goverment test is finally over and i feel like a huge weight has been lifted from me. Haha. But i am now gonna bury myself in assingments.

I'm currently straining to hear the interview transcription we had at Machines. Hard!

Will update when i have more time. :))))